January 2010
3 posts
“I want to reconcile the violence in your heart/ I want to recognise your...”
– Undisclosed Desires, The Resistance, Muse
Jan 26th
Time & again
I manage to redefine disappointment. I wonder why it is my life seems to be an endless series of me disappointing people: Frau Schraudolph, my mother, my friends & myself. Are their expectations too high or does the fault lie with me? Or maybe I should stop promising things to other people. Maybe I should be upfront about my capabilities & handicaps (myself & myself, respectively)....
Jan 26th
Dark Blue
Yes, Mr. Jack’s Mannequin, I have been alone in a crowded room. This feeling is not quite as unpleasant as I’d thought it’d be. I suppose it helps that the room is crowded with people whom I just don’t adore. Just as long as this place has got a door.
Jan 17th